petrifiedx

Listen, I'm pleading I'm quiet I'm bleeding A riot I'm drinking Addiction I'm sinking (by myself) We'll carry on Even now, life will go on A shot for every tear But I'd never change What led me here We fall apart in love We love and fall apart I love you more than me Be all that you can be I'm smiling I'm crying I'm happy You're happy I want you I need you Don't leave me I'll miss you But still, we'll carry on Even now, life will go on A shot for every tear But I'd never change What led me here

I am far from perfect, but ever since the day I realized that the world was truly a world of imperfection, I made a goal to not let myself get torn apart by sins such as pride, gluttony and especially wrath. I torture myself to keep them inside, anger, vengeance. Yet, acedia struck me. Instead of hurting and punishing those who wronged me, I tried to reach out. It was painful, to consider them as myself, a thinking human, with issues and feelings. To not let my sins touch them. My wrath. My imperfections. I wish the world was as beautiful as it used to be but my pain has soiled it. I am still in love with humanity. I am eternally fascinat

Verse 1 Dreams of the young that are seeds to be sprung Sits alone in their room Breathing tar to their lungs I look up to a crimson sky All alone, I want to die Looking up, asking why But all I get are fucking lies! Ref. I fell today, look away I am broken Can't hold on Can't go on I melt away, thought you'd stay here with me I can't hold on Can't go on Verse 2 This gun to my head These hands colored red Wasted all of my hope Now I hope that you choke! Lay my back to the ground Only sound is my head Making sounds to make sure I can never get rest I am sick of your shit Of this life, every bit Of this pain and the

I grew up without stability or the ability to see the pure stupidity of the things I did so passionately I drank alone at night and closed my eyes pretending to be dead while the curtains were closed and my eyes were red I often pictured myself holding a gun to my head read through the promise you made while you sat in my bed it's still there what you wrote and your picture too I know it's been a long time but I miss you

I miss the sound of rain My fingers on the piano I hope to think one day That it was right to walk away I'm kneeling, naked, bleeding Alone and left to die The loneliness I'm feeling Has overcome the cries Quiet and surreal Life seems to carry on The wounds I have won't heal But I can live along I miss the sound of rain Your arms around my waist I even miss the pain That I have learned to face Your eyes are filled with tears Your skin jeweled with scars We've both been through a lot Our own personal wars I hope that things will change For the better after this And that I again can see What used to be just mist

There's roses on the floor and bloodstains on the wall I need to shut me up I have to shut me down We put down dogs that bite and I'm a dog that fights I break things when I'm mad and when I don't understand I never understand and thus I blame myself but I'm the one to blame 'cus I always misbehave I block my feelings out since anger rules with shame but both are leaking out slightly controlled with pain I'm stressed because I'm here where I don't want to be I've been right here for years And I hate it more than I hate me

All roads are split And my sight is weakened Is it the intoxication Perhaps the sleepless nights The painful fights Hold me, I want to cry Kill me, I want to die You will always be my angel Tho the resemblance, somehow my foil There are no such things as good nights only too worn out to care no such thing as good sleep only sleep, and sleep is rare I want to rest my tired mind but it never rests at all I want to leave those things behind but they leave, they never leave Help me, I need you now Don't go, don't let me go Don't you dare leave me alone With all I've done I need you now

The bitter darkness of the night tastes sweet on her tongue The shadows remind her of heartbreak Every day feels so heavy every night so alone Drowning thoughts with whiskey and cigarettes The beauty, so damaged like a blood-covered lamb as she drowns her pain with death